| I LIVE somewhat! |
[Aug. 9th, 2006|06:25 pm] |
Its been awhile since i have posted and at the moment I am in a new apartment for the time being with my friends Kat and Gavin.
Well the news of my life at the moment is:
My old apartment flooded on the first floor (it was a townhome) and so about $250 worth of my furniture is destoryed and the best thing is the management to a week and a half to actual give a damn for 5 minutes to contact maintenance. On the plus side i believe the giving me my rent and security deposit refunded because of their ineptitude.
Next is dizzy spells i was getting them for a while and i was given some medicine but the meds fucked up my hearing so i can't hear real well and i'm on some steroid that fixes that problem trouble is it takes a few weeks and it makes me voraciously hungry. >.<
I'm working actually on 2 story ideas at the moment, ones fairly complex the other is for shits and giggles. At the moment (right this moment) i'm existing on 2.5 hours of sleep and just had a face paced day at work.
Also another plus is that i'm currently dating this girl named Marissa who is really cool and is taking the same major as I am. She likes my art alot, even the adult stuf i do in the furry fandom; she is a furry too (a POOKHA...er POOKA...spelled something in that area). She hopes to work in Canada at some point before wanting to work in Europe which is awesome.
I miss my friends Alex and Chelsey and if they are reading this I LOVE YOU GUYS O_<
Thanks for the drawing of the kissing fish Alex I like it alot.
Well time to flail and i'll check back when i can. |
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| Job YAY! |
[Apr. 10th, 2006|06:06 pm] |
Well I got a job at another sign shop and its alright, i'm making money so i don't really care. My boss looks like George Takai (Mr. Sulu) which is cool.
Working on my portfolio stuff. I hope I pass this time around because if I fail my parents won't pay for another quarter. So basically its all or nothing. I guess its a way to encourage me but it really only makes me more nervous and stressed.
However, I'm really excited because Chelsey made me a website for all of us to post our work and folios, so thats really cool.
I may think of more to right but at the moment i'm at writers block heh....more later i guess. |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2006|12:49 am] |
Everything is going alright here, a few good things and bad things but nothing insane and back breaking
Good Stuff:
Saw Ice Age 2 tonight it was really good. I swear I won't spoil it for you all. However there were these kids in the theagot plans for school, job stuff, trying to make money so i can live in Canada with two of the most kickass friends EVER, Alex and Chelsey..((i want chicken tooo)). I fixed the problem with my copy of Maya 6.5 so i can model stuff again.
Bad Stuff:
The WORST news is my parents are getting a divorce.
But thats about it.
Still planning on moving in with Alex and Chelsey in Canada, somewhere around September if all goes according to plan. So hopefully it will, and I miss them alot.
Later |
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| Stuff..stuff...and new people |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|01:40 am] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Yellowcard- Lights and Sounds | ] |
So I'm finishing up a quarter and the bad news is I won't be graduating this time around. I apparently just didn't have enough models to appease whatever faculty member who would look at my reel. The good new is I have a chance to add more stuff to my reel to make it look gorgeous. So I'm cool with that.
One of Kat's friends came down to visit and so far just about every guy I know that is single has thrown themselves at her. Even my roomate Brian has done this, but he needs to do stuff like that so that he can get comfortable with talking to women (he gets all figetty). Whereas me on the other hand just got to know her and just talked about college and whatever. She is a very attractive woman and she seems nice so hopefully she is having a good time here.
At the same time I miss two of my friends, Alex and Chelsey, Its been awhile since I've seen them and I miss them alot. Hopefully I can get all the immigration stuff completed and actually move to Canada to start the biggest step of my life. I'm excited about it and just having friends close by to celebrate with me is a good feeling.
On a random note, I saw a Chinese Water Dragon at the local Petsmart and it runs up to the glass pawing at it and 'panting'. It acts like a puppy and if I ever bought a lizard it would be that one and I would name it Puppy. |
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| SHE'S BACK |
[Mar. 4th, 2006|12:13 am] |
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YAY!!! our kitty came back to us this afternoon and she looks very tired. Most likely because she got laid by like every cat in the complex. Sooo we might have kittens, but this does not worry me at all, I was just worried that she would be hurt or worse. I was up most of the night like a worried parent so I had to take a nap today. But she is back and she looks fine. |
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| Missing Pet |
[Mar. 3rd, 2006|12:30 am] |
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Our wonderful cat, Asryn, has escaped from our apartment and we've been looking everywhere for her. I feel like a worried parent looking for his child. Hopefully she will come back to us and put an end to this worry.
On a side note I have withdrawn from my portfolio class, because I just didn't have enough work to show to the faculty. So next quarter I will be retaking the class and show them an even better demo reel. This also helps in getting any problems with the website fixed. So far the company that sold me the web space has been helpful with any problems that have occured. But hopefully soon Chelsey, Alex, and myself will have a kickass webpage to display our works. |
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| Bars |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|01:52 pm] |
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So I went to one of those singles bars downtown, Leopard Lounge, and felt REALLY awkward. I don't know why I did but I suddenly felt anti-socialable. Maybe its because most of the people there looked snooty and have priorities for what they want just by looking at them. Anyway I wish I could say someone saw this and rescued me to someplace more comfortable, but no it didn't. For some reason lately I've been feeling lonely, I miss having a relationship with someone. Being able to go and hang out or just cuddle while you watch a movie is a great feeling. So I guess thats my goal this year...to not feel lonely. |
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| Everything...kind of |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|11:05 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  frustrated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hold on - Green Day | ] |
Well, I haven't updated in a while so I might as well start when I left for home before Christmas.
Went home the of Christmas thinking "hey this is going to be okay" the reason I was thinking this was because I was getting my hearing checked and finding ways to help myself hear better. However, what I did not expect to hear was that my parents apparently are getting temporarily seperated from each other for about 6 months. Yes I knew that they were having some difficulties, but I thought they were handling it well. Guess not. Soo here it is a 4 days from Christmas and one of the sadest news in my family to date gets mentioned. That made me very uncomfortable being with my parents. Mainly because whenever I went out to dinner with them without my younger brother and his wife, my Mom will pretty much run for my car without waiting for my dad....yeah really uncomfortable.
Then there was some just frustrating news. My Buick [the tank], after getting it ready for any trip around Chattanooga and Atlanta [oil anti freeze], it blows a tire going up the mountain and I waited 2 hours for the AAA auto guy because I couldn't find the damn jack. I told my parents this and the fact that my entire car shakes when it gets in 3rd gear. So Two days before Christmas I went looking for a new car with my parents and I got a 2006 Silver Honda Civic, I love this freaking CAR! And yes I hugged it. Its all mine and I'm making payments on it.
Finally, ear doctor or doctors rather told me that my hearing was down according to the tests they ran. Well "duh" I could have told you that without the tests but you gotta do your crap. So they doctor in Chattanooga said that I'm gonna see another doctor in Atlanta and meanwhile i'm suppose to take some pills to help. Normally medicine does help, HOWEVER, the medicine he gave me made me an Insomniac for about 5 days. Doctor in Atlanta told me to get a hearing aide [which I did get one and I'm HEARING YAY!!] and to take more dietic steroids to help. I HATE THIS FUCKING MEDICINE. Solely because about all I'm noticing it do is make me freakishly hungry AND keeps me up at night. When I asked that doctor if there was any other medicine that I can take that won't make me an Insomniac, he replies "No....but we have these handy dandy sleeping pills which I'll give you" yes...more medicine.
So all in all, the past 4 weeks have been interesting and depressing. When I think about it the only 2 things that were actually fun was to see my Grandma and getting the new car. It should NOT be like that, I should feel happy when I go home because its HOME. But nooo...I didn't and that disturbs me.
Ughh..Anywho thanks for reading and I'll try to update more. |
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[Dec. 13th, 2005|06:12 pm] |
Two Words:
I PASSED!!!!!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 13th, 2005|09:53 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nervous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The song that Chelsey sings.....whatizzit | ] |
Soooooo in about 2 hours I will be in front of a review board admiring my 3D and 2D work that I have been working on all quarter. The good news is that I have everything ready, The bad news is that one way or another 15 minutes after they look at my stuff I will get the verdict. PASS or FAIL. Two of the most important words of my college career, that will decide whether or not I move on. At the moment i can feel my own heart beating so rapidly I believe it might burst from my chest. Needless to say I am VERY VERY NERVOUS, on edge, pins and needles, the edge of my seat, wondering if I will actually make it out of this.
Mr. Day (critical thinking professor) tells me that College Seniors everywhere face the same fears at the end of each semester. He says that I should first accept the fact that I may possibly fail, in order to relax myself. Trouble is I don't think that will help much, but at this point I am willing to try anything.
Ah songs...always getting stuck in my head. At the moment I have a song in my head that I can't quite place because I forgot where its from. I think its from that CD that Chelsey played for Alex and I when we were driving somewheres. All I know is that it is some Broadway musical. Chelsey if you are reading this what is it? Its that song that you so galantly sung at Max and Erma's Resturant, at Alex's party. La Bohime...Boeme....something.....might be totally off........ARRGGGHHH!....Anyway its feintly playing in my head.
But now to leave some parting words for a few hours, lyrics that just sing to me and sometimes they help me relax:
Cause I love the way that you shock shock shock me, Follow me to my house then you rock rock rock me
Want to see your eyes wide not sevved shut, Queen to be cool don't stop keep up
Living in the city can be dying if you don't get a grip take a sip from my molotov mug
Wanna keep you from keeping you down, help get yourself up off the ground.
-Eve 6 "Arch Drive Goodbye"- |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 9th, 2005|08:49 pm] |
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| | nervous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Eve 6- Arch Drive Goodbye | ] |
Senior project 2 demo reel is due on tuesday at 11:40am.
My mood at this very moment: OH SWEET MOTHER OF GOD I'M SO FREAKING NERVOUS.
nuff said...
by the way a week from monday i will be going to the hospital to see what they can do about my hearing. Its probably gonna suck balls because they may get all paranoid and do 1000 blood tests again....ah my teenage years...so nobody worries about me. I'm gonna see if i can get me one of those cool dinky little hearing aids that nobody notices.
Ah being deaf in one hear sucks. Especially if one has been ringing off and on since i was like 13. It gets annoying.
Anywho thats whats going on with me. |
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[Nov. 11th, 2005|10:14 am] |
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| | accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ayumi Hamasaki- Fly High | ] |
Well on of my biggest stresses ever has just been solved. The stress was animating a 3D feature for my portfolio in senior project 2. So i told m teacher this and he's like HEY...Try this instead. And my life is now better.
Mr. Day caught me drawing him as an anthro...yeah....i felt like i was in 1st grade again because everyone was like "LEMME SEE" it was great even Mr. Day liked it.
Other than I'm doing okay, cept for the cold i got.
I'm missing two of my best friends right now, Alex and Chelsey, *turns away cause he don't wanna get all Mushy* anyway..I checked your new site Alex and it looks Kick AZZZORRZZZZ. Chelsey is liking Flash i would assume
Anywho I hope everyone is doin good. See ya |
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| Tests and .....ummm tests >> |
[Oct. 27th, 2005|02:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | indescribable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Kasier Chiefs _I predict a Riot | ] |
Yeah I had a test in my Critical thinking clas again todays because i failed the first one...to much contrary and contradiction stuffs. However i don't really feel bad about it because the majority of the class failed. Anywho I went to my friend AmonOmega's (Alex) birthday party and it was Awesome. Although I REALLY don't know why his cousin kept slapping my head, I DID NOTHING TO HER O_o. Anyway, two of my favoritest friends (Alex and Chelsey) are moving to CANADA, for college, I will miss them greatly and I hope nothing but great things for them. Take Care you two love yas both. |
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| Losing Something |
[Oct. 22nd, 2005|12:53 am] |
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| |  curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Eve 6- Good Lives | ] |
As I recall, many times over, I've lost someone. No, nobody died but rather a piece of me died. Yeah I know I said all the pain is gone, well all put one piece. I don't mean to bring up more Green Day lyrics but these really struck a chord with me, "..I remembered to burn all of the photographs, She went away and then I took a different path, I remember the face but I can't recall the name. Now I wonder how Whatsername has been." This is the one think I cannot let go, I've tried but I just can't. The Photographs I burned were my memories, however I've lost so much in the process that I barely remember her face. I see her on the streets and I smile but then as we pass by I turn away and move on; wondering if I really did see her or if it was a dream. I need advice, but at the same time I'm worried what the advice could be or at least the answer. The longest moment of my life and I can't even remind myself about it for the better.
Some things are tricky, especially words, They get jumbled up in the mess of things and then no one really knows if its true or not. Feelings mess with your head and your judgment, and for the moment you think you have it right only to discover years down the road you were really just confused and didn't seek the answers to so many questions you've asked. I leave this quote as a reminder that those unanswered questions are still there:
"And in the Darkest Nights, If my memory serves me right. I'll never turn back time, forgetting you but not the Time!"
-Whatsername-
Green Day |
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| What the Hell's your Name |
[Sep. 17th, 2005|04:36 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | "Homecoming" Green Day | ] |
My heart is beating from me
I am standing all alone
Please call me only if you are coming home
Waste another year flies by
Waste a night or two
You taught me how to live.
Ah the feeling of being refreshed and starting over with life. This trip to Canada has made me feel better about alot of things. As well as realizing that some things I can't run from forever. Heh yeah thats right, I ran from things. For those who know me the best this might be a shock to you all because it doesn't seem to be ME. Hopefully I will return to the way I once for good, just with a new look on things.
So far away,
I don't wanna stay, Get me outta here right now.
I just wanna be free,
Is there a possibility,
Get me out of here right now,
This life like dream ain't for me
To those who hurt me, I say goodbye because its not going to hurt me anymore. To those who have helped me I thank you (Alex and Chelsey), you've helped me find myself again and allowed me to start over feeling better about everything. I have learned that if I let the past rule me then my future will be miserable, so I say farewell to my past and let's move on.
The world is spinning around and around,
Out of control again,
From the 7-11 to the fear of breaking down,
So send my love a letterbomb,
And visit me in hell,
We're the ones going
Home.
Lyrics by: Green Day |
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| The General Stuff that Stresses meh |
[Aug. 29th, 2005|06:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | When September Ends -Green Day | ] |
Well its been a very long summer and another quarter is almost over. And for me I'm stressing over many things that seem to either creep up on me or they have been in my head for as long as I can rememberbut never really recognize them.
First of all a major plus on one stressful thing is I've worked out alot of issues with myself and past relationships that haunted me and generally made my life a bitch. So yay for me I guess.
School is being a pain, not that I hate what I do (I love 3D modelling and Texturing). However my weak point is animating and rigging characters and its gonna kill my grade I think. I am seriously thinking about Withdrawing this Friday from a class so that my GPA will be Salvaged.
Life in general is stressfull enough, but thankfully I'll be getting a big break from it all. In about a week I'll be going up to Canada with 2 of my friends, and its the perfect reset button that I need to start over. I feel exhausted and tired, I haven't had a good nights sleep in forever. My body's worn out, I'm worn out. I feel like I've aged by about 40 years and have felt the tolls of time.
I'm tired of everything. I need my rest. I need a long sleep. I need to reset my life and move on feeling better about everything. |
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| Just some blarg |
[Aug. 15th, 2005|04:36 pm] |
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Well everything seems to be moving along smoothly, not that I've finished moving into my new apartment. School is doing alright, just working on projects and getting them squared away. Oh yeah hung out with my roomie, Brian, and my friend Chelsey on saturday at the uber large Mall of Georgia. That was fun bought a few things for me, but it seems that Chelsey got the best deals on clothes ( $47 jeans for $6 O.O thats insane). Anywho thats me. |
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| Drained |
[Aug. 10th, 2005|04:56 pm] |
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| | exhausted | ] |
So much work to do so little time. Everything seems to be running smoothly though which is a very good thing. I'm trying to get all my work done early so that I will be able to go on a trip to Canada with some friends (Alex and Chelsey). They are so so cool to hang with and just all around advice.
Senior Project 1 seems to be the least time managed class I have this quarter. which kinda sucks cause i am hoping to pass all my classes this quarter. If I don't pass senior project 1 or Advanced 3d Animation, then my graduation will be pushed back to Spring quarter 2006.
I've already been here so long and I kinda wonder if its a burden on my parents pockets. Oh yeah i have a job but its like really really really parttime, they only call me in when they need my help. Which isn't often.
Health wise I'm okay I guess, can't really place it solely on one category, but I can tell that I'm exhausted and tired, even though I get enough sleep. Don't think I'm sick or anything.
Anywho, thats whats going on with me today
Laters. |
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| OOooooo new thingies! |
[Aug. 9th, 2005|02:14 pm] |
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Ummmmm....Hi! I'm the new kid I guess in terms of livejournal. I'm an artist, who can't draw humans worth crap, but i can draw everything else. Weird. ummm....So far I guess everything is going okay since my immense depression stage where I seemed to have reminesced (however that freaking word is spelled) past relationships and realised how much they actually affected me.
But I, doing better and I just got a new apartment, and my friends are helping me decorate it and all kinds of things that make stuff happy. YYAYAYYAYAYAYA!
Personality wise I'm a bit of a spaz, but an exciting fun to be with spaz that can be mellow if i really feel like it. But definitly not scary. no. not scary....yes. Anywho I guess I just wanted to say hello to the world that will be ready my so not intimate thoughts because I share them with random people anyway.
Mainly I will just deal with the things on my mind and write interesting thinks that may inspire me later on and will make me say "OOOooo, IDEA!" then I will create whatever the hell I was thinking.
But just remember, not scary....nope I'm not |
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